Lately things have been SO GODDAM FUCKING STRESSFULL. OK, so it starts with my 2 summer book reports that I have too do. They give you these huge 800 page book, 2 of them. and they expect you too read them both, plus another smaller book(they as in my school). Then you have too do a reading log for each one for every chapter. On top of that you have to do a book report for all they book and then a SOAPStone. And I don’t even have the first book finished. Partly my fault, but partly not. It is Friday. These are due TUESDAY! My god how am I gone finish this shit. I am freaking out and gonna cry.

Then my school got a new dress code in which my hair does not comply with. There is no block dying allowed this year. But my bangs are black and the rest is naturally blonde. So I went to go get it streaked yesterday( streaking is allowed) , but the stupid lady fucking messed it up. It doesn’t look like she did ANYTHING to it. And it pisses me off. So tomorrow I have to go get it fixed.

Then I got uniforms that are to “tight” so I have too return them and bother with time I don’t have too get new ones. It sucks.

And my inconsiderate friends want to throw me a birthday party that I don’t want.( I hate my birthday). I didn’t wanna do anything. I don’t have the time to party and be stupid. So I am PISSED TO HELL. (my friends are stubborn and throwing the party anyway).

I am so stressed out. I have too get straight As this year! I HAVE TOO. Lol. I need it for my scholarship. If I don’t get these book reports in, it won’t be good. It will DRAMATICALLY effect my grade! I can’t start sophomore year with an F. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

STRESSED TO HELL GONNA CRY! Nothing is going right and I have no control and it scares me and I want to jump off a cliff NOW.

BUt it was really cool because yesterday, when I got my schedule at school registration, I found out that this year, instead of study hall, I get to run the front desk(not a job normally given to sophmores). So that is cool. And 8th period at my school is just like a tutoring sort of thing, like if you are weak in a subject like math, they will put you in an extra math class. But the counselor said that i don't need an extra class or help in any subject, so she moved my classes so that during 4th period I am a teachers aide for my old algebra teacher. It is awesome. Most students aren't teachers aides until their Junior year. So I feel really privaliged. Lol, I am happy. Teachers Aides are fun and I get to sort of expierence what being a teacher is like . And since that is gonna be my career, this really helps me. And it is preparing me for my future career.I am excited. I am also in journalism and on student counsil. I am very involved this year. And I am excited about school.